goodbye.

i said goodbye to new york tonight.

goodbye to the lights and to the stages.

to times square and to broadway.

to the place where i belong.

where i’ve always belonged.

tonight i said goodbye to the girl i was before i came.

goodbye to doubt and insecurity.

to holding back and to being scared.

to everything i thought i knew.

because i didn’t know.

i said goodbye to my heart tonight.

goodbye to my soul and the core of my being.

to every word that has flowed from the mouth of the actress in me.

they all live here now, yearning to be retrieved.

i will retrieve them.

tonight i waved to new york.

i waved from the corner of 42^nd and 7^th.

from the entrance to the subway.

from a daughter of grass and space.

to the place where stories live.

goodbye, i said.

and i waved.

and i said hello, again, to my dream.